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Success

A man in his 80s told me years ago what was needed to become successful.

He said –

1/3  Money

1/3 Intelligence

1/3 Luck

Every year I grow older I recognize his wisdom!

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From Where I Sit

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A Life Imagined

I vaguely remember being young and dreaming of what my life would be like when I was older.  At this point in my life I imagined I would have more money and be further along in my career.

I imagined I would be something of a hermit because that lifestyle seemed appealing to me.  As a young person living in the projects I just wanted to get away from everything and everyone.

But now that I’m older and still so much the little girl with big dreams but now also the adult with adult issues I face my future with the dreams of a young girl and sometimes from certain angles it seems like those dreams might still come true.

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When You Change Your Mind

Sometimes when I get really mad at someone I decide that I’m not going to forgive them no matter what.  I think to myself that what they did to me is so awful I could never forgive them.  At times I try to tell myself to just let go of the pain they caused me but every time I see them I’m just reminded of that pain.

But sometimes people put in the effort to make amends.  I’m not really used to that happening but it has been happening recently.  And so I’m faced with a dilemma – to forgive a wrong or hold a grudge?

They say forgive and never forget.  I don’t know how to forget pain but I know now I have to learn how to be more forgiving.

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It’s Official

So my birthday happened and it’s official – I’ve been living with bipolar disorder for twenty years.

My ten year mark came and went and I didn’t even notice but twenty years (2 decades) is a long long time.  I have now been sick for more of my life than I have been healthy.

Now I don’t want anyone to think that I am actually sick at this time because I am not.  It’s just that as long as I have the illness (which is forever) I’ll always think of myself as sick.  I still believe healthy people don’t have to take medication or see doctors on a regular basis.  But I am a self proclaimed healthy sick person.

Twenty years in I still deal with stigma and wonder if people think of me as weak or less than because I have a mental illness.  Twenty years in I still hate taking medication and seeing a psychiatrist (even if only 2x a year).  Twenty years in I’m still writing about being sick because it helps me cope.  And twenty years in I’m ready for the beginning of my 21st year when I have no idea what to do with myself because I never thought I’d get here.

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Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.

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This photo has hung in my dad’s apartment for as long as I can remember.  I’ve never asked him about it because it’s presence always seemed self explanatory.

Recently as I’ve been thinking of my aging parents and how they’ve lived through so much of the Black history I’ve studied, I pause when I think of Dr. King the man and Dr. King the leader.  He was quite exceptional at being both.

In my past few years in NYC I’ve learned that men should not be judged by their mistakes because there is no human being past present or future who can live without making them.  I see men in terms of the lives they touch in a positive way while they’re living and after they’ve past.

I wasn’t alive when Dr. King gave his I Have A Dream speech and like Jerrod Carmichael said the speech might be easier for people of my generation to remember if Pharrell had produced it.  But Dr. King continues to touch our lives in a positive way because at the beginning of every year we stop and remember his Dream and we’re reminded of all the work we have to do to fulfill it.

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Needs & Wants

I used to blur the lines between my needs and wants to justify spending money on the things I wanted.  Shoes used to always be a need even if they were only for one night.

But at the end of 2017, I came to the conclusion that there is little left that I need and also little left that I want.  The only thing left to spend money on is what it takes to work towards my personal and professional goals.

I do not place these expenses in a need or want category.  To me they are in a miscellaneous category that serves a different purpose.  The goal is to try to make my future a little easier and a little brighter.  The investment requires a bit of work on my part but the effort will hopefully prove to be worthwhile and if not, if I fail, having made the attempt will bring me some sense of peace.

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Happy New Year! – From Where I Sit . . .

John Chatterton MITF

2017 was an amazing year for me –

  • My first off off Broadway show – It’s Not Stamped On Your Forehead – debuted at the Midtown International Theatre Festival

  • I wrote & published my first book – Project Chic to Paulie (a memoir of my high school days)

BUT. . .

2018 looks promising –

  • It’s Not Stamped On Your Forehead – will be in the Strawberry One Act Festival – May 16th 7pm & May 17th 8:30pm at the Shelter Theatre 244 West 54th St bet. 7th & 8th

  • I’m releasing my second book – Between Love & Time –  (a collection of short stories & poetry) – June 2nd

AND . . . .

  • Brownsville2Concord is back!

LET’S GET THINGS GOING!

 

 

 

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From Where I Sit

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The End of Something Is The Same As The Beginning of Something Else

Typically I have a hard time letting go and moving on.  Now that I’m aware of this I make a real effort to let go and move on when I feel the time is right.

The next post on this blog will be for the sale of my book Project Chic to Paulie.  It is the idea that led to the beginning of this blog and it will mark the end of it (at least for a while).

I want to thank everyone who supported me and all of my ambitions to be a successful writer.  I learned a ton about myself and others that I believe will enrich my life for years to come.

And I want to thank all of the people I’ve never met who came to the blog (even if only for a second).  I enjoyed feeling apart of a community beyond my physical reach.

It’s Not Stamped On Your Forehead opens tomorrow so if you don’t have your ticket you can get it today – NatashaCobb.com

Performance Dates – 8/1 7:45pm  8/3 6pm   8/5 7:15pm

Project Chic to Paulie goes on sale September 30th.  It will be available for purchase on this site and NatashaCobb.com

It’s been my pleasure writing and sharing part of my life on this site but it’s time to move on.

One Last Mental Health Tip – No One Will Take Care Of You Better Than You!

 

It’s the end and the beginning at once –

those are some of the best times!

 

 

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From Where I Sit

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A Journey Worth Taking

A big part of life is about opportunities – the opportunities we are given, the opportunities we are not given, the opportunities we accept, and the opportunities we pass by.

There is no one person who can really guide you on which paths to take though everyone will have an opinion.

It won’t be clear if you’ve made the right decision until after you’ve made it.

And sometimes the people who you think are supporting you are actually hoping that you fail.

But learn to own your decisions.  Sometimes a well laid out plan actually works.