Facing Forward

The Difference

My trainer told me that even my face looked different.  Honestly, I didn’t really know what he was talking about.  I couldn’t remember my face being anything other than my face.  But I found a pic of myself from when I first started brownsville2concord in 2012 and yes there is quite a difference.

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Down 29lbs

Me from pic with mom at bbqs

I could never have imagined all of the benefits from losing a significant amount of weight because I hadn’t lost any substantial amount of weight in over 10 years.

I had pretty much decided my weight was what it was and I was who I was going to be for the rest of my life.  But each day got a little harder.  I breathed a bit harder.  I moved a bit slower.  And my belief in myself lessened.

And then I decided I would invest a significant amount of money in a personal trainer.  Nothing else had worked for me and I found myself in a financial position where I could afford it.  I reminded myself of the saying – “You get what you pay for” and I had never really made a considerable financial investment in my weight loss and I felt it was time to try something new.

But I knew just working out with a personal trainer would be a waste of my money.  So I decided I would I would give up all of the fast food places that had gotten me through all of my stressful and difficult times.  For a stress eater fast food is a sanctuary.  I also stopped buying cases of sodas (to drink all by myself), gallons of juices, boxes of honey buns, oatmeal cream pies and chocolate chip cookies, family sized bags of potato chips, and a different chocolate bar every day.

I put everything down on my DO NOT EAT LIST –

do not eat

I lived this way for four months while working out 3 days a week.

And the weight came off.  And it has stayed off.  Even though once and a while I have a cheat meal and eat off the list.  My trainer told me – “It’s ok to cheat.  But it’s not ok to binge.” Words to live by.

Now 2019 has begun.  I’m taking a bit of break from the working out over the holidays but I plan to get back into it.  I’ve accepted the fact that working out is a necessary part of life for me.  I don’t want to do it.  I have to.

I haven’t set any weight loss goals for this year.  My only resolution is to be my best self – this year and until the end of my days.  I redefine what that means for myself from day to day.


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A Little Bit of Something Can Go A Long Way

One of my biggest lessons from business school is that you don’t have to be the best at anything.  You just have to be better than the worst people in the class.  So how well you do in the class depends on how smart the class is.  I realize over and over again that it is often the same in  life.

A little bit more intelligence than average;  A little bit more money than average;  A little bit more talent than average;  It can take you a lot further than you’ve ever imagined.

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Sometimes Happiness Finds You

For most of my life I knew exactly what I wanted but I still had no idea what I wanted.  What I mean is that I didn’t know anything about what I wanted except that I wanted it.  The things I wanted seemed nice from the outside but I didn’t have any friends who had the life I wanted and the people who I thought had the life I wanted didn’t seem to want to take any time to share anything about their lives with me.

It occurred to me recently that I have many of the things I’ve always wanted and instead of feeling like I should be happy I actually feel happy.  I’ve spent my entire life trying to accomplish many things I have accomplished and I give myself permission to relax and be happy.  This truth came over me very slowly and overtook me completely.

Now I ask myself is it still settling if you’re happy where you wound up?

I don’t think so.

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Look In The Mirror

I know for a fact now that no one believes you can do anything until it’s done.  Sure there are people who support you all along the way giving you guidance and words of encouragement but no one believes anything until it actually happens.  And then they can’t believe you actually did it once it’s done.

Sometimes the person with the least amount of faith in you is YOU.

Try to impress yourself.  It’s harder than you think.

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Month 4

I was so focused on getting through my first 66 days I never stopped to think of the 67th day.  It just hit me this month that I put myself on a different path for the rest of my life whether I like it or not.  And now that the habit is built I have to adjust to the fact that this is now my life.  It’s like discovering a different part of myself.  Things I used to believe are no longer true.  For instance I used to justify eating poorly because I only have one life to live and I should be able to eat whatever I want no matter what.

So here I am in Month 4 – The habit is now my life and each day is NEW.