Facing Forward, Fearless Thoughts

Down 29lbs

Me from pic with mom at bbqs

I could never have imagined all of the benefits from losing a significant amount of weight because I hadn’t lost any substantial amount of weight in over 10 years.

I had pretty much decided my weight was what it was and I was who I was going to be for the rest of my life.  But each day got a little harder.  I breathed a bit harder.  I moved a bit slower.  And my belief in myself lessened.

And then I decided I would invest a significant amount of money in a personal trainer.  Nothing else had worked for me and I found myself in a financial position where I could afford it.  I reminded myself of the saying – “You get what you pay for” and I had never really made a considerable financial investment in my weight loss and I felt it was time to try something new.

But I knew just working out with a personal trainer would be a waste of my money.  So I decided I would I would give up all of the fast food places that had gotten me through all of my stressful and difficult times.  For a stress eater fast food is a sanctuary.  I also stopped buying cases of sodas (to drink all by myself), gallons of juices, boxes of honey buns, oatmeal cream pies and chocolate chip cookies, family sized bags of potato chips, and a different chocolate bar every day.

I put everything down on my DO NOT EAT LIST –

do not eat

I lived this way for four months while working out 3 days a week.

And the weight came off.  And it has stayed off.  Even though once and a while I have a cheat meal and eat off the list.  My trainer told me – “It’s ok to cheat.  But it’s not ok to binge.” Words to live by.

Now 2019 has begun.  I’m taking a bit of break from the working out over the holidays but I plan to get back into it.  I’ve accepted the fact that working out is a necessary part of life for me.  I don’t want to do it.  I have to.

I haven’t set any weight loss goals for this year.  My only resolution is to be my best self – this year and until the end of my days.  I redefine what that means for myself from day to day.

 

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