It took 7 years but I finally acquired enough faith in psychopharmacology to take my medication everyday.
I spent years with my mind in a haze unable to fully function taking medication prescribed for once a day only once a week.
Thanks to an amazing doctor, years of therapy, and a bit of divine intervention I can survive under extreme amounts of stress, get out of bed early in the morning or work late, and even lose weight.
I never imagined any drug cocktail could work so well but I was completely wrong.
Every person is unique but there is a solution for everyone. Maybe psychopharmacology is not it but that is not a reason to give up searching.
Sometimes good health is a choice.