All throughout my therapy using drugs and/or alcohol in place of medication was referred to as self medicating. I never quite understood why. To me self medicating is deciding how I would like to take my medication and that has nothing to do with how it is prescribed.
During college I started out by skipping my meds one night a week. One night turned into two and then three and then four and pretty soon I was only taking meds once a week. I didn’t drink much and I’ve never used illegal drugs but I thought I knew more about my body than any doctor and that meant I was the best qualified to decide when and how much medication I should take.
Now I know this is stupid. If I’m not going to take the meds as prescribed I need new meds. There’s no other way for me to stay healthy.
Sometimes I think I could have been healthy much longer if I came to this realization sooner.